Why I'm keeping this

Hey one!! idk what kinda person you must be to study my thoughts. You have landed on one of the darkest site in world wide internet. I'm a very emotionally broken guy, so desperate for that one person to show my "love", and she isn't responsive as usual. When I saw her the first time, I knew she was the one. But I fear it would just be an abstract dream. Every second of the minute and every minute of the hour and every hour of the day, my brain thinks only about her. on the other hand, she doesn't even bother the least about me. That makes me fall for her more. It just happened that I hit a rock bottom after sending my confession, and she gentle rejecting it and posts stories as if nothing happened. I just decided that I no longer want to live in someone's life. I wanna live each day from here on as if it were my last. So, hi user reading this. Happy heaven!!