It's been a while i texted you...

It's been 8 days since I last messaged her with the closing note on how I felt extremely light, and it was a perfect closure. can't proceed unless she initiates a conversation again. She's kinda girl I never thought I would develop this deep love for. I won't say it's typical love cuz we never had a physical meeting. It's extreme infatuation. I don't know why. I feel I need to protect her from outside evils for the rest of her life. literally i didnt hate her for not accepting my proposal. I still care for her. I genuinely don't care if she feels the same way or has feelings towards somebody else other than me. It didn't trigger anger in my mind, except for a little bit of sadness. This thing is eternal. Love and care are not a transition to be completed(proposal/acceptance); it's the perennial water body that exists for eternity. I just wish i be with her forever. She's kinda like a snarling little pet. I adore her. although i dont exress explitily though my facial expression, but I do love her. Now, she might be a little immature to understand my heaviness, but soon she will. It's real.